Wednesday, June 24, 2009

People always leave..

People always leave...
Do they ? guess is like that in my life... people just come in and go off just like that, feel like you are standing in the middle of the road.. seeing and observing people come and walk pass you..

Really wonder how does it feel? when you have a close friend for even once.. and you thought that it will be a very beautiful friendship that will be long lasting, but just at that blink moment, the things that you always thought that will be there is soon to be not there... feeling of loss every single time you give in, and you only ended up being lonely....

I really hope for a really long lasting friendship.... but so far is like majority of my close friends just come and go... and even when we try to keep in touch at the end we just lost contact... just today got to know bout my friend might be leaving for further studies in a so called better university.. when I heard that, it felt like something really hard just hit on my chest... and i was thinking, what another one leaving!! Gosh I'm running out of close friends...for that moment I just feel so upset, don't even know how to react... all I did was just kept quite and did not even say anything. I know that I have no rights to tell my friend what to do and decide for my friend, but deep down in my heart I just really hope that this friend of mine could really stay.... is not easy for us to build up such a good friendship and now know that my friend will be leaving ... I'm really feeling super upset till the max..

Some people might think is just a friend.. you can make new friends again =) but as for me, I know that is really hard to find a friend that can really click and talk and also share your heart with. I really treasure this friend of mine. And just wanna thank you for everything that you did to support me as a friend. even when i gave up on something, you can always make me take back what I say and strive hard for it....
If you are reading my blog, I just want you to know... having you as a good friend is the best thing ever since I came down to study in kampar.. so just wanna thank you for everything, every support and encouragement that you gave me ... thanks alot =)

And yea, I really hope that you can stay... will be super upset to lose a friend like you...
Anyhow, things are still blur but one thing that is I'm really glad to have you as my friend all this while.... thanks alot friend.

People Always Leave........ But I say, Why not stay for awhile longer ...

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Kampar life ~

Just came back from Ipoh... back to the super duper hot place.. kampar....
gosh what is wrong with the weather man... its so freakin hot plus plus there is alot of haze now days... have a feeling that I might fall sick again =___='

Feeling so random again... but this is the 1st time I blog outside from my comfy room... ahhh miss my air conditioner so much ... the cooling air ... but now I am so hot and sweating and feeling sticky... yucks.. guess you all can imagine how it feels ...

Its already been 3 weeks since I came down to kampar to do my further studies... now
I'm entering week 4 .. gosh is it me or is it time in Uni passes faster than six form life... so pack up with assignments assignments and still assignments!! Oh Lord save me please ....

Plus just too many things happen and still so many unsolve business ... starting to feel stress again... And I guess that's somehow good and bad in a way ... Good is I can motivate myself to keep on going and striving towards my dream bad is I might go in to depressing state again .... hopefully it won't happen again ... it's a nightmare for me ...

but well dispise all things that happen and deep shit that I step in ... still in a way i feel calm and relax... maybe because I know that God is looking over me =) I'm seriously really really glad to have God with me ... thanks alot God for providing securenss for me ...

well nothing much to say for now... sry guys been very busy with Uni .. will soon update me bloggie ... till next time ...

chaoz~~