Updates !

Oh yeah.. at last !! I'm posting something on my blog again after so long..

my 2nd semester has started, only 3 subjects intro to jap, shun zhu business arts, and also pendidikan moral ....

so basicly I have 3 days of class only, but sadly my classes are on Thursday, Friday and also Saturday... Gosh I hate Saturday classes man just can't do anything else. I need a Saturday break !!!!!!

hmm.. well guess have to wait for another sem, hope that I would get a better timetable next semester. Other than that things are just going fine I guess hehe ....

Been hanging out a lot with my ex school mates these days... Yee Kheng, Tyrael, Jia Yee, Cheah Hui... =) Just felt like the old days when we all hang out in form 6 ... gosh miss those days man ... and miss all my friends so much ... Just hope to hang out with them more ...

Nothing much happen, 2 months since I broke up with Crsie already... still trying to seek forgiveness for those stupid stuff that I've wrong her ... sorry friend.. hope to mend things right somehow ... hope you can find peace in God....

oh yea, finding a place to move out... at the end I still prefer my own private space =)

so now I'm trying to find a new crib to stay in hopefully can get one with a reasonable price... desparate for a self owned room!!!!!!!!!

well so far thats what happen in these few months nothing much big... still hanging on thanks to God's unfailing love towards me =)

till my next post ...

God Bless

Hoping for a new start ...

Just how do we meassure love ?

based on what?

I'm really clueless...

To say I don't love you... I still think of you from time to time... those beaufitul moments that we had...

but....

To say that I still love you... I find it hard to be back with you after all the things that happen between us, it has cause alotof pain and scar that takes big time to heal and recover.

Im really torn apart this time. So afraid of being hurt again and again. Is not that i don't wan't to face you, I'm just so afraid so afraid that I don't love you anymore...

Maybe our saparate paths without saying anything might be the best solution for us....

sorry...love you...

Sigh.... Im so worn out already.... and things is just not turning ok at all....

wish everything is just a bad dream and I will wake up soon enough and end this nightmare....

But, I guess this ain't dream at all.... is the truth....

sometimes truth is very hard to handle... but then, what can I do? I wan't to hold on, but she don't wan't to.... I wan't to let go, but I can't do it.... my heart aches everytime I think of it....

Oh LORD just please tell me, what should I do?

stay and fight a good fight of faith.....

or....

leave for the good of each other(at least this is what I think of for now..)

but at the end.. If you are reading my blog... that is if you are...

just wan't to tell you...

I've never regretted in loving you until now.....hope you will come back to me....

Love you forever and always....

Somehow.. I just hope i could turn back time....

Wind back to the very begining where everything hadn't happen.... and stop everything....

All this while I was so positive it was the right choise that I had made... but now... I doubt bout it alot, is it really the right thing that I had decided during the brink of that moment..

I really wonder......

Things might turn out to be better I guess if I handle it properly that time. Sigh....

Sorry for everything.... I couldn't be the right one I guess....

need a break!!

seriously man I need a break....

like just can't be at peace at most times, from time to time we just kept on moving and moving foward. There is just too lilttle time to take a rest, could only afford to take a short break...

ahh.... really hope I could jsut get away .. .get away from all this noise in ly life just for few days ...

really wanna relax and enjoy...

wish i could be here now

the caribbean

arghh i need a vacation desparately =(

So fast it's already week 13 in university life!!!

woah~~~ time flies just like that ... just 2 months ago I jsut started university and poof now I'm soon taking my finals and having my 1st university semester break!!

well its kinda fun thinking of semester break, but still back to the reality I have a exam to pass man !!!! just hopefully i can pass the exam will good scores =) at least a B lol....

well nothing much wanna share here for now so till the next post =)

God Bless

GEt in tune with God

Another inspiring preaching from Rob Bell...

Hope you guys enjoy it =)

I'm back.....

Hey guys I'm back to blog more i guess...

it's been qutie a while since I blogged... hopefully you guys will still tune in and catch up with my future post till then =)

People always leave..

People always leave...
Do they ? guess is like that in my life... people just come in and go off just like that, feel like you are standing in the middle of the road.. seeing and observing people come and walk pass you..

Really wonder how does it feel? when you have a close friend for even once.. and you thought that it will be a very beautiful friendship that will be long lasting, but just at that blink moment, the things that you always thought that will be there is soon to be not there... feeling of loss every single time you give in, and you only ended up being lonely....

I really hope for a really long lasting friendship.... but so far is like majority of my close friends just come and go... and even when we try to keep in touch at the end we just lost contact... just today got to know bout my friend might be leaving for further studies in a so called better university.. when I heard that, it felt like something really hard just hit on my chest... and i was thinking, what another one leaving!! Gosh I'm running out of close friends...for that moment I just feel so upset, don't even know how to react... all I did was just kept quite and did not even say anything. I know that I have no rights to tell my friend what to do and decide for my friend, but deep down in my heart I just really hope that this friend of mine could really stay.... is not easy for us to build up such a good friendship and now know that my friend will be leaving ... I'm really feeling super upset till the max..

Some people might think is just a friend.. you can make new friends again =) but as for me, I know that is really hard to find a friend that can really click and talk and also share your heart with. I really treasure this friend of mine. And just wanna thank you for everything that you did to support me as a friend. even when i gave up on something, you can always make me take back what I say and strive hard for it....
If you are reading my blog, I just want you to know... having you as a good friend is the best thing ever since I came down to study in kampar.. so just wanna thank you for everything, every support and encouragement that you gave me ... thanks alot =)

And yea, I really hope that you can stay... will be super upset to lose a friend like you...
Anyhow, things are still blur but one thing that is I'm really glad to have you as my friend all this while.... thanks alot friend.

People Always Leave........ But I say, Why not stay for awhile longer ...