Hoping for a new start ...

Just how do we meassure love ?

based on what?

I'm really clueless...

To say I don't love you... I still think of you from time to time... those beaufitul moments that we had...

but....

To say that I still love you... I find it hard to be back with you after all the things that happen between us, it has cause alotof pain and scar that takes big time to heal and recover.

Im really torn apart this time. So afraid of being hurt again and again. Is not that i don't wan't to face you, I'm just so afraid so afraid that I don't love you anymore...

Maybe our saparate paths without saying anything might be the best solution for us....

sorry...love you...

Sigh.... Im so worn out already.... and things is just not turning ok at all....

wish everything is just a bad dream and I will wake up soon enough and end this nightmare....

But, I guess this ain't dream at all.... is the truth....

sometimes truth is very hard to handle... but then, what can I do? I wan't to hold on, but she don't wan't to.... I wan't to let go, but I can't do it.... my heart aches everytime I think of it....

Oh LORD just please tell me, what should I do?

stay and fight a good fight of faith.....

or....

leave for the good of each other(at least this is what I think of for now..)

but at the end.. If you are reading my blog... that is if you are...

just wan't to tell you...

I've never regretted in loving you until now.....hope you will come back to me....

Love you forever and always....