Emotional breakdown!!!!

Aiks... this year CNY is crap!!!!!
just took both my phones to get repair around RM60 ....
Big big rugi this month .....

Summore exam is just around the CORNER!!!. and SOMEthings are just bugging me till i can't concentrate at all in my studies..... feel so awful everyday.....

Somehow i felt like suiciding now days although is a crazy and negative thought.... but don't know why i am feeling like this this whole month.... this is so so CRAP!!!

ARRRGHHHH!!! i wanna break free from all of this.... really dislike studying.... sadly i'm force to study.. and the worst part is... i'm force to study things i am seriously not interested in.... sigh... life is just so so lame now days... and i feel weak and hopeless...

But even though i know that this is a test from god.... and so i will just give it out all and do my best as i could....
God please lead me.... guide me ...desperately seeking for your guidance.... i wanna be better and better..... so that i can become i true testimony to others!!!!!