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Time just flies....
it goes pass us so fast that some of us don't even notice it......
blink of eye it's already August.....
or to be more accurate August 24th 2008...rainy day.... the sky is so gray...... and i'm missing someone so much.....

well alot of things has been going on and off as i stated on the past post.... and things are still the same .... nothing much has changed... sometimes i just feel this kind of feeling that i should run away.... run away from all this crap... these problems that make me so confuse so conflict within my self... just hope i could just run... and run.... and just keep on running away .... without looking what's left behind.....

But i know that i can't... because there is also so many factors that i can't let go.... God, family, crsie, friends....... sigh... its just too frustrating already.... i always tot that i had a strong faith and a strong heart when problems come.... but then i realize... hey..i'm just a normal teenager.... still in the process of growing..... and i'm not tat strong as i imagine also ...LOL... sad case ..

Just today, suddenly i just tot of all the things i went through from last year till now... man.. honestly i've really change alot.... in the sense of attitude and other stuff etc etc....sometimes i still can't believe myself....Teoh Ting Jiun.... a christian...prefect???...GOOD GUY??? HOLY????? (that's what people label me as nowdays) not like that old times....jerk, sakai, retarded, useless, hopeless, lala, kokoi, cacat...etc etc....just feel so different already with my life now.... moved back staying with parents....got a good life .... a great girlfriend XD...... awesome friends!!(true friends!!!).....and i always think do i deserve all of this....

I got all of this thanks to God ... and also the people god put around me... i really learn alot from them.... and i felt i'm really bless cause i have them as my brother's and sister's in christ.... and somehow when i think of all this... just i felt... yeah things aren't that bad also... because there are still so many people around me .... and i'm sure that God wants to see me be strong and stand still and overcome every trial that God set for me..... so on that very moment i've decided not to run away anymore.... and i just pray that by faith all that is happening will be over soon enough and i've already made 80% of my move towards the problem... just pray that what ever that is gonna happen may it be God's will but not men's will.....

In addition .... i also pray for those people who are causing alot of issues for those on going incident... just hope that whatever you guys do... always check your heart and really make sure that thats what God wants you guy to say or do..... well at the end of the day whatever you all commit its for yourself to know and God bless you all.....

Even a simplest and smallest sin that we commit....
For God is just still the same...
Sin is always againts God word...
And no people is sinless or less in sinning....
we are all equal....
we are all the same...
we are all sinners....
but because of God's love for us...
we are save through Christ....
Amen....

-God is always watching.......-