Thursday, August 9, 2007

To judge or to be judge.....2nd chance

It has been a harsh month for me ...... many things happend within these few weeks..... it can be said its the hardest part of time i had been throught so far.....but life is like that, so many things can just happend just like that without us noticing it.

Just recently my dearest uncle past away, well it was themost sad time i had so far.... but i know it has already past so i still have to move on as time flows....Besides that i am facing many problems in school also.... kinda frustrated now actually...

It seems that people still judge me as the 'old' me... kinda sad when i realise that.... actually i really don't understand why do people dislike me so much.... maybe they just don't know who am i really.... well who knows?? Since i started schooling since form 1..people often look down at me... laugh at me, tease me, insult me, bully me.... but there is always one thing playing in my mind... WHY ME BUT NOT THE OTHERS??maybe this is what they called face problem gua?? who knows?

After all these events that i had been through somehow i manage to survive and came back to the same old place to study form6 .... for me form6 is a new beginnig for me... the day 1 step in form 6 i was determined to change all my bad habbits and try to become a better person each and every moment.... i am trying very hard .... and i realise life is so meaningful when there is resposible taken up to be done.... many things i had learn through out these past few months..... becomeing more resposible, tolerate, more paitient, more self motivating, and also i learn how to respect others.... it has been an amazing journey so far.... but yet there is still many problems occuring around me... well thats what life is all about isn't it ?

Well something i realise through out these few months.... no matter how youhad change sometimes people just can't accept the fact that we had already change... they will always judge us by the past but not the present.... dand it felt awful for me when i found out of this... seriously i don't know how to react when i realise there are still people that havent change thier ways of judging me..... they still see me as the form 5 boy that cause alot of trouble, lazy and always do stupids that kind of person.... well if anyone who know me well reading mty blog.... i just wanna say that... i am really really trying hard to change the past me andbecome a better person all the time.... and all i request is just a 2nd chance for me..... a chance to proove myself worthy of being a leader... thats all.... the reason i step up and became the president of interact club is not because of pride or fame..... all i wanted is just to make the club better .... and bring back the glory of the club... yet i am still getting weak supporting from the members.... and i heard that there are some of them boycotting me sommore....that moment i felt very awful.... i try so hard to fight and make the club better but i never get full supprot from the members instead they will just backstab me from behind.... that feeling sucks.. alot.... for all this while i am doin my best and i just hope for a 2nd chance to proove that i am worthy... beside that i also wanna proove to the others that people do change.....

Well at least i know... i had change alot since the last time..... and i am learing step by step how to be a better leader, student and also a better person for all my friend....The past of mine is so dark and messy... someday i really wish i could get out from my past andbecome a better person... and all people will accept me and sees me as normal person...like others.....well seriously i don't know what i've done to make so many ppl misjudge me... but i am very sure that i am try my best tochange d.... so i really really hope people will giv me a 2nd chance to make things right...... and proove that i am a worthy person in handling things....
so please give me a second chance....

5 comments:

vin fei said...

dun worry bout wat ppl say bout u. not to deny totally deny them, but leave some space for urself.

but i can see that u've changed for the better di. lolz

AOCY said...

hmm...wat can i comment? oh well, i'm being direct now...

one sentence : don't sympathise urself!

ivantan said...

Actually u reali should change abit. Cuz my fren and I think that u very lc wan, dunno why. U think yourself la... I can just give some comments.

Alexander said...

dun worry..its juz tat u haven't changed fully or there are still some characteristics of u tat we still dislike or u're changing the wrong characteristics of yourself.think about it ask ppls opinions,change a bit of your atitude s Ivan says....

Jefferychan said...

My comments ...
BE YOURSELF :D