At this rate... how should I feel?

happy ...

sad...

suicidal...

All I can say is that I lost hope ... on everything that I cherish and cared... on and off things has been going on in my life.. and many tragic and also unlucky stuff that I've faced, it sucks so much just to go through it even a bit.

I just can't take it anymore, I hate this feeling.... this feeling of getting left behind....

WHY?? WHY EVERYONE JUST TEND TO LEAVE ME ....

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY LIFE!! SCREW IT....

not gonna live in this world any longer.... i wanna just fly and get away from everything....